Suddenly, dapat idea nak buat new entry. Hihik. Sengih gedik. Last sem, I have conversation with my friend. And suddenly, she talked about her cousin (male) who have fall in love with a girl and told his mom about the girl. Sweet ey. Jarang la remaja skang ni nak bg tau mak dulu kalau jatuh cinta. Ye dak? I know a lil bit about him. And I know he's a good person and a person who have good knowledge in Islam. And I asked my friend, "The girl tu baik ke? Mesti yang tdg labuh kan?" As I expected, my friend sais "Yes"
Idk why but feel so sad until I burst into tears. Not because I got jealous. Oh tidakkk. Haha. Tapi rasa macam sedih sbb lelaki baik mesti cari yg baik. I mean, Yg kopiah pilih yang tdg labuh. Ustaz dgn ustazah. Penah tak terlintas kat fikiran korang? Ke aku jer? Actually, my dream, my hope, I wanna have a husband that have good knowledge in Islam and make Islam as Ad-Deen. But, I know I'm not a good muslim yet. With lack of 'ilm. Mudah lalai. Mudah lupa. Bukan bertudung labuh. Ada ke my lelaki idaman nak? ehemmm...Sebab tu rasa sedih. Rasa macam tak tercapai je impian tu. Bukan saja2 ye nak orang baik. Penting sbb he is the leader for our family. A leader on how to build a Baitul Muslim. Melahirkan anak2 soleh dan solehah.
Me: Aku nak lelaki yang boleh bimbing aku. Terima kekurangan aku and perbetulkan
Friend: Try your best to be good. Allah knows well. Allah tau apa yang kita perlukan. Mungkin kita tgk orang tu baik orang ni baik. Tapi igt, Allah knows better who are good or not.
Lepas tu rasa okay deh. Hehe. Husnudzhon dengan Allah. He always know what I need.
Ingat, good women for good men, evil women for evil man. Jom jadi lebih baik. KeranaNya. I'Allah
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